I just wanted to write a short entry about what has happened this past year.
Why I haven't kept up with my comic, finished comissions or drawn as much art as I used to.
Because I'm tired of excusing myself all the time and blame it on other things. I mean yeah, school's been horrible too but it was before, too.
No but the reason of my "hiatus" was because almost at the same time as I started high school I became sick.
I became very sick in a way that I couldn't physically or mentally manage anything.
In the fall of 2011 I was diagnosed with an eating disorder that would periodically go between Anorexia and Bulimia.
I also badly selfharmed myself in different ways. I was very sick.
During this time I became very weak and I could barely manage anything and this is why I've been so distant from my friends on here (and in school). If you feel like I have shut you out during this year (and if you are still here to read this) please know that it was not my meaning to push anyone away.
At the same time there were also a lot of drama and shit going on in my family and I just completely lost myself.
This has caused me so much harm in my social life and my grades has dropped a lot.
During the summer of 2012 I started recovering for real and dedicated the whole summer solely to learn to eat again, to get routines again and to love myself again.
Now it's been like 10 months since I last hurt myself and I have learned to live again. I feel much better and I'm much healthier. I am still not fully recovered but I'm fighting.
So there. This is what I have been too scared to tell anyone that's asked and who has never gotten an answer.
On a completely other note, this past month I have been working a lot on my comic. A lot. I feel more passionate about it again and I will soon, when I've worked up my grades, show you guys what I'm planning. I've completely changed a main thing and it feels really good.
I will try to get back to working on it as soon as I can!
So, to anyone who has maybe been wondering or have been angry with me for not finishing comissions, or because I have been distanced, this is just an explanation of what what's happened. I have not been lazy I have just been really busy building up myself again.
I will hopefully become more active here sometime soon!